(see the last item on this list for the “four years” reference!)
This week, I am thankful:
to still be healthy
It’s a rough winter out there, and the patient volume at my hospital reflects that. Luckily, I have not gone down yet, but of course, it’s still early. We have another couple of months of Very Germy Season to get through.
Regardless, I’m glad to have made it this far!
for a catch-up call with Lisey
Zoe and I were eating together when we got a call from Lisey, so I put it on speaker and we all got to catch up. Even Chiquita joined. 😉
for beautiful places to walk
How lucky am I to have so many trails with lovely views here??
for a catch-up with my friend
She just got a new job, so she’s rather busy too. But we managed to meet up for some tea and croissants. 🙂
that I walked out four years ago
Four years ago on this day, I woke up from a dream that reflected how deeply I no longer wanted to live.
And on that day, I walked out of my marriage, although at the time, I did not understand that that’s what I was doing.
My parents had asked if I could at least come to their house for a weekend, for a break, because I was honestly in terrible shape.
I could not stop crying, and I remember walking around in a fog trying to pack a weekend bag. Our bodies often reflect our mental state, and I distinctly recall that I packed in a hunched-over state, unable to stand up tall.
I felt crushed, exhausted, and beaten down, with no hope left, and my posture reflected that.
I left with the idea that I would go back after the weekend, after I’d gotten myself together a little. But then the girls and I got Covid, so we stayed away longer*. And the longer I stayed away, the more clarity I got.
Eventually, I decided I could never go back.
*Notably: being sick at my parents’ house, living out of a weekend bag was still WAY better than the way I’d been living, and I felt slivers of hope peeking through the clouds.
The date would have slipped right by me except…when I clocked out of work last night, a friend texted me because she remembered I left my marriage on January 15th.
I was so busy living my new life, I hadn’t even noticed. And maybe that is a testament to the rebuilding that has happened these last four years.
I used to wish I could go to sleep and never wake up; now I wake up each day excited to live.
And I am grateful, grateful, grateful.
What are you thankful for this week?
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